Nevertheless, I give every breath I have to God and thank Him for His grace.
I do some high-altitude hiking to build up strength and fitness again.
I’m certain I will be well again.
I throw away a lot of stuff I think the gypsy woman poisoned at Lourdes, but something is still giving me RA in my hands, I’m not sure what it could be.
It stopped for a few days when I was serving Mary, and then started up again.
Having just had a couple of back-to-back, too-good-to-be-true headhunts from recruitment agencies Hype and Client-Server.
I have had zero queries in months and months, and only about two in total since I left Polygon last October/November.
I interviewed for a couple of jobs but reached out myself for those.
I’m wondering if the global tech-porn elite, those who must have known about the porn fatwa on my head, commonly use recruitment agents to manipulate porn targets who might be working in tech.
Could there be a female tech-colleague porn category these days?
The emails remind me of the Torus job which never existed and seemed to be part of the hacking I was enduring at the time, and the reason why I pulled out of the process.
They also remind of the eventual Polygon job interview and offer and how an actor, Nadim, seemed to have been recruited to terrorize me, and then again in Bali where an actor may have been recruited to be filmed having sex with me at a company offsite gathering.
If this is true, then I have literally been working with men who have watched me while I was raped sedated; possibly as a child and maybe even live if they were prepared to pay for it.
It means they have a sedated-sex-slave and spy-cam porn genre; most of the targets starring direct from their Spanish apartments/houses.
Perhaps they were managing the tech systems supporting the porn production and release.
It’s remarkable I managed to have any sort of career at all!
Is this what the billions of dollars funding for crypto is really paying for? Female tech colleague-porn subscriptions?
It would not surprise me.
Do I have to be suspicious of everyone I have worked for over the last twenty years now as well?
He said that a company in Newcastle was hiring a senior tech writer and that I was an ideal candidate for the role.
I looked at their website and it was clear to me the company was not hiring outside of Newcastle, which is not what Philip had told me as I’m based in London.
I asked Philip to confirm, and he said that they are definitely hiring in London.
I believe this was a ruse to get me to have a chat with him.
I did have a chat with him about the job.
I mentioned I was busy with my true crime novel also.
I felt his tone was disingenuous and I also had that boys-club imposter feeling of being less-than-human again, how I felt in many of my recent tech roles.
He never got back to me.
I thought I would check with the company just to make sure my suspicions were correct.
I don’t know why but whenever I called out the timing words, I did it in a curious voice, like an air traffic controller maybe - I thought this after watching all the air crash disaster shows and listening to how they speak over the radio.
Alma told me about the special place in the tunnels at the Kotel while we were under the table during a bomb warning - she may have told me this in May and then I prompted her again in August.
This is the spot closest to where God was in the temple and still is even though the temple is not physically there.
Only women sit there because it is extraordinarily powerful.
I’m so keen to go, so Alma takes me one morning before the course.
Whenever I’m in Jerusalem, I feel like I’ve been plugged into God, but this was something else.
And I saw something curious which looked like the whole universe, and I told Alma I had seen the whole universe, but it was difficult to describe so I didn’t elaborate.
What I saw was an image of the whole universe but it was sort of brown with colored blobs of yellow and orange for the galaxies, like a child’s picture.
Alma has been so kind, so genuine, so human… I’m so happy to meet a normal human being with a functioning heart. It’s been so long.
I don’t have a house or any hope of getting one with things as they are…
Nevertheless, I’m compelled to tell her that when I get settled, and everything’s safe, and the evil can’t touch me anymore, I will invite her and her daughters to my house.
Alma is my friend and the invitation still stands - not that anything in my living situation has improved since then, it’s rather worsened but I’m not complaining. I’m confident, more and more every day, aren’t you folks?
