August 2025

A song to the mountains

• The mountains give me time to reflect and get my head straight.
• They whisper their secrets, as usual.

• My health is a shadow of what it was last year due to the poisoning but I’m still here so I’m grateful.
• I continue to notice my peripheral eyesight deterioration.
• Nevertheless, I give every breath I have to God and thank Him for His grace.
• I do some high-altitude hiking to build up strength and fitness again.
• I’m certain I will be well again.
• I throw away a lot of stuff I think the gypsy woman poisoned at Lourdes, but something is still giving me RA in my hands, I’m not sure what it could be.
• It stopped for a few days when I was serving Mary, and then started up again.
• Could it be my computer keyboard?

Haircut

• I go for my regular haircut with the exceptionally good hairdressers here in Cauterets.
• I wonder if whatever Sandra told them the year before will be in the air.
• It is.
• The male hairdresser gives me a hack-job and appears to be angry with me.
• I’m amazed.
• I was wondering if maybe Sandra was so sure I’d never return, she told them I was terminally sick or something like that.
• But no, I think it was something more insidious.
• I tweet about it.

• A message flies by “Oh we know what it was, we know, we know!”
• It makes me wonder about the November 2024 hack-job in Bangkok, which curiously ended up being one of the best haircuts I ever had.

Recruitment agents

• Having just had a couple of back-to-back, too-good-to-be-true headhunts from recruitment agencies Hype and Client-Server.
• I have had zero queries in months and months, and only about two in total since I left Polygon last October/November.
• I interviewed for a couple of jobs but reached out myself for those.
• I’m wondering if the global tech-porn elite, those who must have known about the porn fatwa on my head, commonly use recruitment agents to manipulate porn targets who might be working in tech.
• Could there be a female tech-colleague porn category these days?
• The emails remind me of the Torus job which never existed and seemed to be part of the hacking I was enduring at the time, and the reason why I pulled out of the process.
• They also remind of the eventual Polygon job interview and offer and how an actor, Nadim, seemed to have been recruited to terrorize me, and then again in Bali where an actor may have been recruited to be filmed having sex with me at a company offsite gathering.
• I wouldn’t be surprised if all of the weird interviews circle back to Polygon, David Schwarz and Jordi, Dénia hackers and porn production and broadcast companies.
• If this is true, then I have literally been working with men who have watched me while I was raped sedated; possibly as a child and maybe even live if they were prepared to pay for it.
• It means they have a sedated-sex-slave and spy-cam porn genre; most of the targets starring direct from their Spanish apartments/houses.
• Perhaps they were managing the tech systems supporting the porn production and release.
• It’s remarkable I managed to have any sort of career at all!
• Is this what the billions of dollars funding for crypto is really paying for? Female tech colleague-porn subscriptions?
• It would not surprise me.
• Do I have to be suspicious of everyone I have worked for over the last twenty years now as well?
• Let’s see if the recruiters come back now.

Updates

• You can check but I’m pretty sure Joel and Philip are best buddies.

Joel Barden at Hype

• Joel’s job sounded amazing and I would have jumped at the chance.
• It fell threw pretty quickly.
• I believe it was probably legit and I had a lot of work to do on the statement still so I would probably have had to decline anyway.

Philip Parmour at Client Server

• Philip’s job sounded made up.
• He said that a company in Newcastle was hiring a senior tech writer and that I was an ideal candidate for the role.
• I looked at their website and it was clear to me the company was not hiring outside of Newcastle, which is not what Philip had told me as I’m based in London.
• I asked Philip to confirm, and he said that they are definitely hiring in London.

• I believe this was a ruse to get me to have a chat with him.
• I did have a chat with him about the job.
• I mentioned I was busy with my true crime novel also.
• I felt his tone was disingenuous and I also had that boys-club imposter feeling of being less-than-human again, how I felt in many of my recent tech roles.
• He never got back to me.
• I thought I would check with the company just to make sure my suspicions were correct.
• They were.
• Here’s my email to them.

Brittany Ferries

• On the boat home, I see they’re doing karaoke.
• I decide to sing.
• I meet a British couple there and we chat.
• They buy me a drink.
• I’ve already had a few drinks; it won’t sit well on my overwhelmed kidneys from poisoning, but I don’t care.
• I need to sing to my love, to express how I’m feeling.
• I’m certain he’ll hear it.

• I get them to raise the tone a fifth before I do or I won’t make the low notes.
• I sing for my love, resoundingly; even the brass flourishes are ours.
• I sit back down.
• I tell the British couple that the middle-aged British woman is a force to be reckoned with.
• They like it that I said that.
• I never had braves like this before in my life.