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October 2026

Cauterets

  • Unfortunately, this is a pre-booked apartment and they’ve had a long time to set up.
  • I see them going in to take down when I leave; and some personnel leaving at the same time as me.

The Cure

Poisoning and sedated surgery, again

  • For sure, they accessed my belongings in my car parked in Toulouse and added some poisons in there, I think I wrote about that in September.
  • Looking back, I was a bit high still there so they were still affecting my thinking processes.
  • They sedated me too, and did something, I don’t know what but I seem to have a keyhole scar under my left armpit.
  • On one of the first nights there, I woke up in terror and ran out of the bedroom and slept on the sofa.
  • I did that another couple of times too.
  • I had a weakness in my left armpit breast side, and my breasts became very large - this is a symptom of CO2 gas to the chest cavity.
  • I guess they film everything and we’ll find out.

Lourdes

In the trenches

  • I’m writing messages and getting answers in the street, like usual.
  • My social media activity seems to be a meeting point for numerous interested parties and I start feeling like I have friends all over the place; wolves, lions, snakes, as well as sheep, kids, and children.
  • This is good.
  • There must be a defined split of who could even tolerate egg and semen theft for the elite.

Trump

  • wip

wip more

  • see emails to myself

Guruji’s stolen children

Writing to myself

  • When I start to serve Our Lady, my internet access is very intermittent so I start to write emails to myself on my phone about things I’m thinking.
  • I get responses directly to these emails from people in Lourdes; usually in the restaurant or in the sanctuary itself.
  • This MUST prove American fielding of my emails down to trusted hospitality members who then share information with others requesting them to bully me and “say things”… etc.

Everyone knows who I am

  • The sedating-rapists have been warned long in advance I’m arriving.
  • My room in Lourdes hospitality accommodation is 108.
  • Everywhere I go, people are whispering and pointing.
  • I know they’re mostly being lied to about what makes me so famous - they’re being told it’s because I disagree with transvestites working in the baths, part of an email to myself.
  • I expect only all the men and a few women know the truth that it is to do with the sedating-rape epidemic - the Abomination of Desolation in the holy place - so when women come up to me and respond to things I have said online, I know they’re not getting the full story because it would END IMMEDIATELY if it wasn’t just one lone voice in the wilderness, me.

Jonathan, Alletru, others…

  • They quickly tell the people who DO know that I’m here.
  • My location is pinpointed, as usual, just like it was with the porn-gangs of Spain.
  • Jonathan pops up - I had no idea Jonathan was involved but I always thought he was a porn addict from the way he spoke to me.
  • And then I start to remember weird things with Jonathan from right back when I met him in 2014 and ongoing through to 2021 when I lived there.
  • They tell a woman, Alletru she calls herself, I’m there and to go sit next to me at dinner - in a completely empty restaurant.
  • I look at her. I recognize her.
  • She’s doing her week’s stage, second year, so I work with her in the baths.
  • She speaks, and laughs. She sounds EXACTLY LIKE Sandra Diaz.
  • I look at her more closely.
  • She looks like Sandra Diaz (Benedetta) also, enough to be her/his mum.
  • I remember being sedated/drugged with Sandra (she did this all the time, a little bit like Zoe, a relaxant to make you confident, and then she overdid it a few times, this instance I remember being really under consciousness, like deep down, far away, and annoyed too) and her introducing me to her: everyone thinks she’s my mum we’re so alike, she says. I think we were in the sanctuary outside the restaurant one evening after dinner.
  • I realize Alletru is a phoney name and not a very good one either.
  • She is all over me until I make it very clear I know who she is and then she backs off a bit. After I ask her if she has a child called Benedetta, I don’t see her again.
  • Another woman sits with us, a Venezuelan living near Saint Jean de Luz (remember Sandra recommending I go there and visit, which I did, and I believe I was sedated-and-raped there).
  • The Venezuelan seems angry with me. I wonder if she’s a link in the supply chain and if they’re feeding vulnerable women into sedating-rape-porn traps, and more.
  • These two sit with an elderly friend of mine who is vulnerable, and I don’t like it - remember Benedetta was grooming the French pensioners in the choir in 2023/24 the last time I saw her/him.
  • I bet she’s a transvestite. It would be poetic.

My last night in Lourdes

  • I go to bed.
  • About half-an-hour later I wake up with SEVERE cystitis.
  • It’s as if I’ve been raped violently.
  • I haven’t had cystitis since 2016.
  • I remember my mum used to get it whenever she visited me in Dénia.

Restoration/cleansing of the sanctuary

  • I’ve done something good; it’s not clear what, but something big enough to get me “punished” on my last night for sure.
  • I urge the team to check for any men reporting their penises falling off in Lourdes over the last few days and you’ll have him/them.

Boots

  • So I bought two pair of Hush Puppies boots last year in London.
  • I decided I was going to wear the grey pair as they’re winter boots and it’s getting cold and I like them.
  • So I got them out and put them on.
  • Instantaneously I realized the right boot is a size smaller than the left - and considerably so.

Mismatched boots

  • I wore them to dinner.
  • It was excruciating. My right foot felt like it was in a vice.
  • I couldn’t believe it.
  • I wore these boots all the time last year when I was in London, and I didn’t notice.
  • This means I must have been on quite heavy painkillers for most of last year - which makes a lot of sense given the repeated sedated surgeries.